A prayer about a crappy day (and a crappy attitude)

Lord,

Help me.
I’m going through a crappy time,
and I don’t want to hear anyone saying
trite little comments to me about how thankful I should be or how things will get better.
I know that.
I just don’t feel that.
I’ve decided I’m having a pity-party.
This feels right, at the moment.
But of course, then I feel worse.
It’s all selfishness.
I know that.

God, I don’t know how you’re going to change my heart.
This is a big ask, and a bigger commitment to repent on my part.
I need you.
I need my faith in you to grow.
I really do need someone to knock some sense into me.
Except they really should do it from a distance
because I’m likely to take a swing back.

Hmm.
Maybe I just need to find a punching bag.

Punch me.
I’ll go open the Bible.
I’m sure something there will reach out and knock me upside the head.
So in advance of that happening,
thank you.

I do love you.
Please bear with me a little longer.
Amen.

1 Timothy 6:11-12–“But you, man of God, flee from all this, and pursue righteousness, godliness,faith, love, endurance and gentleness. Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses.”